I'm typing this while at cruising altitude, but don't ask me what that is because I don't spend enough time in the air to actually know. I spent Friday night in Jacksonville, as a work-slash-fun trip, but it's nice to get back to family. I was texted while I was there to ask what kind of oil to use for making popcorn so I was a little sad I missed popcorn-and-a-movie (dear lord, I can do without watching TS3 again though). But I did get to visit with a great high school friend and her family, and her extended family for a bit even (her brother and his family, and parents - all whom I know from high school).
I've been doing good on the no soda kick for the past (checks calendar) 3.5 days but I've MISSED IT. I daydream about the stuff. It's my crack, really. I haven't done QUITE as well with no sweets, but reasonably. I'm not beating myself up over my slip-ups. I had a handful of M&Ms on Thursday night, two mini Milky Way darks, and Lisa made a Toblerone mousse for dessert last night and if you think I'm going to pass THAT up you've got another thing coming. There were also a couple of small glasses of wine ...
I haven't done any exercising due to a bit of a crazy week, but I've forced myself out of the elevator at work a couple times and took nothing but the stairs while I was there - 6 flights a day, each way. (BTW, I did actually get into the elevator and then back out twice. It's work!)
I was amazed at how quickly I was acclimated to driving an SUV. I've never liked larger cars, and I've always appreciated being low to the ground - better for maneuvering, as it was. But after one week in the Tucson I had to get in a Mazda 3 rental and I felt So! Short! I got used to it, but the drive to my work obligation was very strange. I'll be glad to get back in my own beautiful vehicle. (Also, it's not often that I get in a rental and my car is better. I loved my Corolla, but bells and whistles it did not have).
This month is going to be difficult and crazy. I want to make good food choices while I'm on the road for work (I have seven day trips and this overnight) but any exercising I do will likely be at home. I bought myself a kettlebell (Shea, gonna come over and show me how to use it properly?) and I have a couple of exercise things to start (there's really good yoga doodads on YouTube, surprisingly).
The people in front of me are drinking on this flight. I know it's common, but it's like 9am. I am not opposed to an early morning mimosa, but it feels like it would be weird to have a 7&7 for breakfast. Just me, apparently.
I'm working my way through Dragonfly in Amber, but it feels like it's dragging and it disappears from my ebook library in a fair nine days (I'm somewhere around 250 of 1033). I have another book from the ebook library that is likely to take me a couple hours to read (Evanovich, don't judge) and then I NEED to get started on my two book club books. I picked Light Between Oceans for my pick for my main book club (it's my month to host) so obviously I should read the dern thing before people show up at my house to discuss it. For the book club that my neighbor started, we are reading Glass Castles. I've already read it but it's been a couple years so I need to get a quick re-read in before the 18th (and it won't even count toward my year of books, wah! I don't count re-reads). So four. If I can get through those four, possibly it will be a successful month. I do have several driving trips for work though, so if anyone has any good (cheap) audiobooks to recommend, please do.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Goal time
I’ve thought a lot about my resolutions this year. Last year … well, I can’t wait to get to a real computer and delete that list on the right there. I want to give myself a challenge, but I also want to not set myself up to fail. Without further ado:
Me:
I want to take care of myself this year. Last year I nearly pretty much stopped exercising, stopped running, started drinking soda again (a lot!), ate white pastas again. I fell back into the rabbit hole, as it was. So this year I need to get that all back. I gained weight (15lbs, all said and done) but moreover I just feel bad about myself. I have a new starting weight and while I never try to focus too hard on the number, ultimately I’d like to lose 33 lbs. I’m still not good at cutting foods completely out of my life (and I don’t think it’s a particularly healthy way to do it, although I understand the inclination) but I am going to cut sweets out completely for a month, and soda all together. I plan on one “starch” serving per day, less cheese and more complex carbs over whites. I want to explore tofu and eat more soups and salads. I am committed to using the stairs exclusively at work, and working out more at home and possibly again on my lunch break at work. I am committed to running again.
I am committed to Biggest Blogging Loser. (Last attempt I gained 4lbs, but the first time I lost 20lbs during BBL and 42lbs during that year, so there’s that. I didn’t try one iota this past attempt. This time: different.)
I want to make sure to take my anxiety/depression pill every single day. I need to focus on finding out if it’s helping or if I need to tweak my prescription. I need to use my eczema creams properly so my feet feel better.
My family:
I want to nurture my relationships with my husband and children this year. Last year … well, I just felt like I yelled a lot and felt overwhelmed a lot. I haven’t really figured out how to fix this for myself (open to suggestions!) but I’m just going to try not to yell. I’m going to try to smile more and laugh more and hope that with practice it comes more naturally. That happens, right? Fake it till you make it? So more playing outside with the kids, more date nights with the husband, more (sex), more laughter. Just more me. And them.
I think that’s a doable goal list. With this comes the usual – read (I read 103 books last year, I plan on sticking with 100 again this year). Trips – I’m going to The Blathering, a cruise with my BFF, hopefully a trip to DE, possibly Colorado if it can be worked out, and fingers-crossed a trip alone with my husband. I just bought a car, so I plan on cooking more and want to work on a meal planner so that my veggies aren’t going to waste. I’m now in two in-person book clubs (mine is defunct) so I’ve been working on that. And there’s work, which is busy busy.
.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Me:
I want to take care of myself this year. Last year I nearly pretty much stopped exercising, stopped running, started drinking soda again (a lot!), ate white pastas again. I fell back into the rabbit hole, as it was. So this year I need to get that all back. I gained weight (15lbs, all said and done) but moreover I just feel bad about myself. I have a new starting weight and while I never try to focus too hard on the number, ultimately I’d like to lose 33 lbs. I’m still not good at cutting foods completely out of my life (and I don’t think it’s a particularly healthy way to do it, although I understand the inclination) but I am going to cut sweets out completely for a month, and soda all together. I plan on one “starch” serving per day, less cheese and more complex carbs over whites. I want to explore tofu and eat more soups and salads. I am committed to using the stairs exclusively at work, and working out more at home and possibly again on my lunch break at work. I am committed to running again.
I am committed to Biggest Blogging Loser. (Last attempt I gained 4lbs, but the first time I lost 20lbs during BBL and 42lbs during that year, so there’s that. I didn’t try one iota this past attempt. This time: different.)
I want to make sure to take my anxiety/depression pill every single day. I need to focus on finding out if it’s helping or if I need to tweak my prescription. I need to use my eczema creams properly so my feet feel better.
My family:
I want to nurture my relationships with my husband and children this year. Last year … well, I just felt like I yelled a lot and felt overwhelmed a lot. I haven’t really figured out how to fix this for myself (open to suggestions!) but I’m just going to try not to yell. I’m going to try to smile more and laugh more and hope that with practice it comes more naturally. That happens, right? Fake it till you make it? So more playing outside with the kids, more date nights with the husband, more (sex), more laughter. Just more me. And them.
I think that’s a doable goal list. With this comes the usual – read (I read 103 books last year, I plan on sticking with 100 again this year). Trips – I’m going to The Blathering, a cruise with my BFF, hopefully a trip to DE, possibly Colorado if it can be worked out, and fingers-crossed a trip alone with my husband. I just bought a car, so I plan on cooking more and want to work on a meal planner so that my veggies aren’t going to waste. I’m now in two in-person book clubs (mine is defunct) so I’ve been working on that. And there’s work, which is busy busy.
.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Sunday, December 30, 2012
My year in review
I hadn't planned on doing this for 2012, mostly because when I look at my goals for 2012 I'm just so disappointed in myself. However, I've really enjoyed reading them across the internet so I think maybe it would give me perspective on my year. Here goes.
1. What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?
I went to The Blathering which was huge for me. I have gone on trips for myself before (my very best friend lives out of state and I've gone to see her a few times, and on a trip to NY with her) but I've never made a trip to see people I've never met before, by myself with no "safety net" to speak of. It's not that I'm introverted per se, but I have a hard time with new experiences. A very hard time. An anxiety-ridden, hyperventilating time.
That's all that I can remember. Isn't that enough?
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I redesigned my blog on around day two of the new year and I know I read more than 100 books but other than that, no. I failed in a spectacular fashion, which makes me both disappointed in myself and disappointed that I expected so much of myself. Honestly, while I wish I had taken care of myself better, I'm not seriously upset that I didn't complete many of those goals. I thought they were good benchmarks and it turns out they just weren't.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Three good friends had babies - one in April, one in October and one in November. Beautiful, squishy bundles of joy. They made me wish for another and yet not really want a baby. Conflicted (husband's not, still quite happy with two).
4. Did anyone close to you die?
We lost my grandmother in January which affected me more than I thought it would. I think about her often, and when I got together with my dad's family last week it was fun to share funny stories.
5. What places did you visit?
Delaware, New Orleans, and I think that's it.
6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
More patience for work, my children, life.
7. What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I can't think of anything that specifically stands out for me. Taking the kids to Disney with my best friend and her family was very special (the Sunday before Thanksgiving, whatever date that was), the day I got the phone call about my grandmother being in the hospital and then the funeral. The Blathering will be something I always remember.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I think I recognized what I needed to change in my life. I got on anxiety/depression meds and saw a dermatologist about my eczema. I'm not great with my meds still to know if it's helping as much as it should be or if I need to tweak it, but I still feel I'm on the right track. 2013 will be the year of getting my shit together.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I lost my running mojo and stopped eating as healthy and exercising pretty much at all. I only gained about 10 lbs back, but I certainly don't feel as good or as good about myself as I did at the end of 2011. Next year, man. I get it all back.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I was amazingly healthy, besides a resurgence in migraines and sinus issues. Nothing medical.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
I really just want to cut and paste Ginger's answer here. Going to The Blathering was the best thing that I did, so all expenses related to that were just perfect.
I also just bought my first new car in nearly 9 years two days ago, and some pretty great shoes.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
(this answer intentionally left blank)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I'm stealing Ginger's answer completely here:
Everyone who got nasty/ugly/hateful during any of the heated moments this year: political, cultural, social.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Daycare, mortgage, food, bills, MY NEW CAR
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Blathering. Disney. Christmas.
16. What song will always remind you of 2012?
Call Me Maybe - the boys sing it, and even though it's possibly the most annoying song of 2012 it's freaking adorable when two pre-kers sing it.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier
b) thinner or fatter? fatter
c) richer or poorer? Richer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Play with my boys, spend quality time with my husband.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Yell.
20. How did you spend Christmas this year?
With my family.
21. Did you fall in love in 2012?
No, but my love for my family was amplified many times over.
22. What was your favorite TV program?
The New Girl. I was not a good tv-watcher this year, but I love me some Zooey. And some Nick.
23. What did you do for your birthday in 2012?
Is it terrible to say I have no idea? I got an iPad, and I think I took it off work for once because my husband had it off anyhow so we spent the day together.
24. What was the best book you read?
I'm going to have to look at my list to remind myself of what I read, but I loved all the Lindsay Buroker books, Unbroken, Outlander
25. What did you want and get?
A new car, an iPad.
26. What did you want and not get?
A lack of anxiety.
27. What was your favorite film of this year?
Hunger Games is the only thing I can remember seeing that wasn't a kids movie. Did Dark Knight Rises come out this year? Then that too. Although Wreck-it Ralph and Brave were cute.
28. Did you make some new friends this year?
I like to think I came away from my trip to New Orleans with some new friends. <-- this, thanks Ginger.
I started getting heavy into Twitter the second half of this year, and I really do feel that I have some real friends there.
29.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less anxiety.
30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Jeans and cute tops.
31. What kept you sane?
My Tuesday time alone.
32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I love me some New Girl cast.
33.What political issue stirred you the most?
My main issue with politics in general is people's lack of moderation and inability to see things from the other side. I don't mind when people disagree with me, but I do mind when they act like I'm an idiot for having my own opinion.
34. Who did you miss?
I miss everyone. Move here, people!
35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
To take time for me so I can be a better mother and wife.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
1. What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?
I went to The Blathering which was huge for me. I have gone on trips for myself before (my very best friend lives out of state and I've gone to see her a few times, and on a trip to NY with her) but I've never made a trip to see people I've never met before, by myself with no "safety net" to speak of. It's not that I'm introverted per se, but I have a hard time with new experiences. A very hard time. An anxiety-ridden, hyperventilating time.
That's all that I can remember. Isn't that enough?
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I redesigned my blog on around day two of the new year and I know I read more than 100 books but other than that, no. I failed in a spectacular fashion, which makes me both disappointed in myself and disappointed that I expected so much of myself. Honestly, while I wish I had taken care of myself better, I'm not seriously upset that I didn't complete many of those goals. I thought they were good benchmarks and it turns out they just weren't.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Three good friends had babies - one in April, one in October and one in November. Beautiful, squishy bundles of joy. They made me wish for another and yet not really want a baby. Conflicted (husband's not, still quite happy with two).
4. Did anyone close to you die?
We lost my grandmother in January which affected me more than I thought it would. I think about her often, and when I got together with my dad's family last week it was fun to share funny stories.
5. What places did you visit?
Delaware, New Orleans, and I think that's it.
6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
More patience for work, my children, life.
7. What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I can't think of anything that specifically stands out for me. Taking the kids to Disney with my best friend and her family was very special (the Sunday before Thanksgiving, whatever date that was), the day I got the phone call about my grandmother being in the hospital and then the funeral. The Blathering will be something I always remember.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I think I recognized what I needed to change in my life. I got on anxiety/depression meds and saw a dermatologist about my eczema. I'm not great with my meds still to know if it's helping as much as it should be or if I need to tweak it, but I still feel I'm on the right track. 2013 will be the year of getting my shit together.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I lost my running mojo and stopped eating as healthy and exercising pretty much at all. I only gained about 10 lbs back, but I certainly don't feel as good or as good about myself as I did at the end of 2011. Next year, man. I get it all back.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I was amazingly healthy, besides a resurgence in migraines and sinus issues. Nothing medical.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
I really just want to cut and paste Ginger's answer here. Going to The Blathering was the best thing that I did, so all expenses related to that were just perfect.
I also just bought my first new car in nearly 9 years two days ago, and some pretty great shoes.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
(this answer intentionally left blank)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I'm stealing Ginger's answer completely here:
Everyone who got nasty/ugly/hateful during any of the heated moments this year: political, cultural, social.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Daycare, mortgage, food, bills, MY NEW CAR
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Blathering. Disney. Christmas.
16. What song will always remind you of 2012?
Call Me Maybe - the boys sing it, and even though it's possibly the most annoying song of 2012 it's freaking adorable when two pre-kers sing it.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier
b) thinner or fatter? fatter
c) richer or poorer? Richer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Play with my boys, spend quality time with my husband.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Yell.
20. How did you spend Christmas this year?
With my family.
21. Did you fall in love in 2012?
No, but my love for my family was amplified many times over.
22. What was your favorite TV program?
The New Girl. I was not a good tv-watcher this year, but I love me some Zooey. And some Nick.
23. What did you do for your birthday in 2012?
Is it terrible to say I have no idea? I got an iPad, and I think I took it off work for once because my husband had it off anyhow so we spent the day together.
24. What was the best book you read?
I'm going to have to look at my list to remind myself of what I read, but I loved all the Lindsay Buroker books, Unbroken, Outlander
25. What did you want and get?
A new car, an iPad.
26. What did you want and not get?
A lack of anxiety.
27. What was your favorite film of this year?
Hunger Games is the only thing I can remember seeing that wasn't a kids movie. Did Dark Knight Rises come out this year? Then that too. Although Wreck-it Ralph and Brave were cute.
28. Did you make some new friends this year?
I like to think I came away from my trip to New Orleans with some new friends. <-- this, thanks Ginger.
I started getting heavy into Twitter the second half of this year, and I really do feel that I have some real friends there.
29.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less anxiety.
30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Jeans and cute tops.
31. What kept you sane?
My Tuesday time alone.
32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I love me some New Girl cast.
33.What political issue stirred you the most?
My main issue with politics in general is people's lack of moderation and inability to see things from the other side. I don't mind when people disagree with me, but I do mind when they act like I'm an idiot for having my own opinion.
34. Who did you miss?
I miss everyone. Move here, people!
35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
To take time for me so I can be a better mother and wife.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Merry Christmas from sunny (chilly) Florida
We had a fabulous Christmas. In terrible internet-momma fashion, I didn't take any photos of my children opening presents. I didn't take the obligatory "Santa came!" photo. I ... um, I didn't take any pictures at all (in my defense I'm pretty sure my dad did but he hasn't put them on facebook for me to steal yet).
We have "traditions" for Christmas, now that Spencer has been through five of them. We are also still starting new traditions. For instance: ongoing tradition is that on Christmas Eve we always bundle up in pjs in the car after dinner and drive around looking at Christmas lights. Our new tradition is that we have Mexican food for lunch and go see a movie. This year we saw Monsters Inc 3D, and it was a big hit. This also means that we need to be completely ready for Christmas BEFORE Christmas Eve, which is challenging but doable.
Christmas morning is another tradition, one that hopefully will always be. When the boys wake up, they get to open their stockings only. Then the grandparents come over for breakfast - my mom, dad and his girlfriend, my in-laws and my brother (my sister was also suppose to come but she skipped again). We have a nice sit-down breakfast - biscuits and gravy, egg and sausage casserole (courtesy of my MIL), fruit, coffee, coffee cake, and bacon. Then we all open presents. Presents!!
The boys had a "successful" morning. Tag readers for both of them, a batting tee and baseball accoutrements, socker boppers, movies, and a climbing thing for outside. We got lots of gift cards and I got a stovetop espresso maker. So it was a successful Christmas for me too! All in all, it was a really nice time.
Later in the afternoon is another Christmas tradition. We head over to my in-laws' for a Cuban dinner (roast pork, yucca, plantains, boliche, rice and beans) and more presents and relatives and desserts. We do a Christmas exchange so everyone gets something but you don't have to buy for everyone, so I ended up with a hummingbird feeder and hummingbird garden seed and a bottle of Dave Matthews wine, and C got an Amazon gift card (who am I kidding, that's pretty much mine too). I bought for C's cousin and his new wife - (my most recent favorite), felt coasters, and a travel scrapbook for him, and a scarf, fig candle and earring holder for her.
All in all, a great time. Yesterday I started test driving cars to decide for my upcoming purchase of a new vehicle. Fun times!!
(if I ever come up with pictures, I'll update but I wouldn't count on it)
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
We have "traditions" for Christmas, now that Spencer has been through five of them. We are also still starting new traditions. For instance: ongoing tradition is that on Christmas Eve we always bundle up in pjs in the car after dinner and drive around looking at Christmas lights. Our new tradition is that we have Mexican food for lunch and go see a movie. This year we saw Monsters Inc 3D, and it was a big hit. This also means that we need to be completely ready for Christmas BEFORE Christmas Eve, which is challenging but doable.
Christmas morning is another tradition, one that hopefully will always be. When the boys wake up, they get to open their stockings only. Then the grandparents come over for breakfast - my mom, dad and his girlfriend, my in-laws and my brother (my sister was also suppose to come but she skipped again). We have a nice sit-down breakfast - biscuits and gravy, egg and sausage casserole (courtesy of my MIL), fruit, coffee, coffee cake, and bacon. Then we all open presents. Presents!!
The boys had a "successful" morning. Tag readers for both of them, a batting tee and baseball accoutrements, socker boppers, movies, and a climbing thing for outside. We got lots of gift cards and I got a stovetop espresso maker. So it was a successful Christmas for me too! All in all, it was a really nice time.
Later in the afternoon is another Christmas tradition. We head over to my in-laws' for a Cuban dinner (roast pork, yucca, plantains, boliche, rice and beans) and more presents and relatives and desserts. We do a Christmas exchange so everyone gets something but you don't have to buy for everyone, so I ended up with a hummingbird feeder and hummingbird garden seed and a bottle of Dave Matthews wine, and C got an Amazon gift card (who am I kidding, that's pretty much mine too). I bought for C's cousin and his new wife - (my most recent favorite), felt coasters, and a travel scrapbook for him, and a scarf, fig candle and earring holder for her.
All in all, a great time. Yesterday I started test driving cars to decide for my upcoming purchase of a new vehicle. Fun times!!
(if I ever come up with pictures, I'll update but I wouldn't count on it)
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Saturday, December 22, 2012
I never wanted a wienie whistle
I'm currently sitting here drinking a homemade egg nog latte (egg nog and strong coffee, shaken in a mason jar) while bacon jam bubbles away on the stove. I could be starting my cookie baking, or my marshmallow dipping, or my ... oh, whatever else I decide to make today. But right now I'm content to sit on my butt and drink my latte and blog.
I was thinking the other day (while watching The Santa Clause, I think) about if there was ever something I asked for but didn't get from Santa. I was told about Santa from a very young age because of my parents' divorce. I remember my mother telling me there was no Santa. She pulled me into her pullout couch/bed in her room of our very small trailer to snuggle, and very kindly explained to me that Christmas would not be very big that year and it wasn't because I had been bad but but she just didn't have the money.
But Christmases at our house were always over the top. Piles and piles of presents covering half the living room. I know I didn't appreciate it as much as I should have. I've never been good at receiving gifts; I don't know the proper amount of enthusiasm. Looking back, I have no idea how my mom afforded all of that. I remember certain gifts from different years - one year my mom made me a doll house. Another year I got a pager (yes, I know, I'm old) and another one I got a Body Shop dress that I had coveted. I don't ever remember asking for anything specifically from Santa, and I don't remember not getting something I really wanted.
We don't go over the top for Christmas for the boys. This year have been the biggest, and I can't say it's a crazy Christmas. Hopefully they like what they get, but more I hope they just enjoy the day.
A sales person asked Spencer last week what he wanted Santa to bring him. "I don't know," he answered. "Whatever he brings me will be fine with me!"
Such my child. At least I know he won't be disappointed!
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
I was thinking the other day (while watching The Santa Clause, I think) about if there was ever something I asked for but didn't get from Santa. I was told about Santa from a very young age because of my parents' divorce. I remember my mother telling me there was no Santa. She pulled me into her pullout couch/bed in her room of our very small trailer to snuggle, and very kindly explained to me that Christmas would not be very big that year and it wasn't because I had been bad but but she just didn't have the money.
But Christmases at our house were always over the top. Piles and piles of presents covering half the living room. I know I didn't appreciate it as much as I should have. I've never been good at receiving gifts; I don't know the proper amount of enthusiasm. Looking back, I have no idea how my mom afforded all of that. I remember certain gifts from different years - one year my mom made me a doll house. Another year I got a pager (yes, I know, I'm old) and another one I got a Body Shop dress that I had coveted. I don't ever remember asking for anything specifically from Santa, and I don't remember not getting something I really wanted.
We don't go over the top for Christmas for the boys. This year have been the biggest, and I can't say it's a crazy Christmas. Hopefully they like what they get, but more I hope they just enjoy the day.
A sales person asked Spencer last week what he wanted Santa to bring him. "I don't know," he answered. "Whatever he brings me will be fine with me!"
Such my child. At least I know he won't be disappointed!
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Monday, December 17, 2012
Secret
Spencer asked me to tell him a secret tonight.
I whispered into his ear "I love you!"
No, he said. That's not a secret. Everyone knows you love me.
I know it, and our family and friends all know!
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
I whispered into his ear "I love you!"
No, he said. That's not a secret. Everyone knows you love me.
I know it, and our family and friends all know!
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Sunday, December 16, 2012
My world
This weekend, reeling from the worst anxiety attack I've had in a year and the elementary attack, should have been terrible. I had a mini breakdown about the loss of my grandmother (she passed earlier in the year and this is the first christmas without her; the last time we were all together outside hospice/funeral was last Christmas). I've purposely avoiding most blog posts/news/twitter discussions about the shootings, and I'm not going to talk about it here either. I live in a state of denial that is really the only way I can function. My son goes to kindergarten next year. That is all.
Despite the above, my weekend actually pretty much rocked. Friday night my mom babysat and we went out with good friends and had phenomenal food (Ceviche's). Because I'm not a food blogger (and didn't have a decent camera in the low light, who am I kidding) I didn't take photos although our waiter did allude to the dessert being perfect for Facebook photos. There was artichokes and mushrooms in goat cheese and oxtail and scallops and DUCK IN CHOCOLATE SAUCE and crème brûlée and sangria ... And fantastic company. I love my friends, man.
Saturday was a long, fantastic day. I was up early w Henry because he was snotty (and C had a hangover) and we made a good breakfast. C got a haircut and we went to a birthday party for a friend's son. We did some Christmas shopping and had dinner and fun with C's cousin, which it has been at too long since we did (non-holiday) with her. The boys LOVE her, we love her ... It needs to be more often, that's all there is to it.
Today my stress level was much higher. I'm not sure what it was, but everything was bugging me. I got almost all the wrapping finished, I defrosted the wine fridge (priorities, dude), took the kids for a walk. I did grocery shopping on my own (although I had a minor hissy fit when C suggested I do so). Tonight's advent activity was "eat dinner by candlelight" so we turned all the lights off except the tree, turned on the Christmas music and lit candles and had a really lovely dinner of spinach ravioli in pumpkin pesto w shrimp. Henry had crackers and Spencer had just the shrimp, but I didn't fight w them about any of it, and we enjoyed ourselves.
I'm going to try hard to keep my anxiety and stress level down this next week. We've been eating out a bit too much so I'm striving for dinner at home every night until Christmas but I have a pizza in the freezer for emergencies and I think I have the meals planned which helps the stress. We have three cookie-making nights ... Which we'll have to possibly rethink. We don't even eat the cookies so there's that. We have a few people left to get gifts for, but I'm pretty solid on my people and C can be forced to find something for his father (the hardest person on the planet to purchase for) if need be. I'm not going to stress.
I'm not going to stress. My holiday mantra.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Despite the above, my weekend actually pretty much rocked. Friday night my mom babysat and we went out with good friends and had phenomenal food (Ceviche's). Because I'm not a food blogger (and didn't have a decent camera in the low light, who am I kidding) I didn't take photos although our waiter did allude to the dessert being perfect for Facebook photos. There was artichokes and mushrooms in goat cheese and oxtail and scallops and DUCK IN CHOCOLATE SAUCE and crème brûlée and sangria ... And fantastic company. I love my friends, man.
Saturday was a long, fantastic day. I was up early w Henry because he was snotty (and C had a hangover) and we made a good breakfast. C got a haircut and we went to a birthday party for a friend's son. We did some Christmas shopping and had dinner and fun with C's cousin, which it has been at too long since we did (non-holiday) with her. The boys LOVE her, we love her ... It needs to be more often, that's all there is to it.
Today my stress level was much higher. I'm not sure what it was, but everything was bugging me. I got almost all the wrapping finished, I defrosted the wine fridge (priorities, dude), took the kids for a walk. I did grocery shopping on my own (although I had a minor hissy fit when C suggested I do so). Tonight's advent activity was "eat dinner by candlelight" so we turned all the lights off except the tree, turned on the Christmas music and lit candles and had a really lovely dinner of spinach ravioli in pumpkin pesto w shrimp. Henry had crackers and Spencer had just the shrimp, but I didn't fight w them about any of it, and we enjoyed ourselves.
I'm going to try hard to keep my anxiety and stress level down this next week. We've been eating out a bit too much so I'm striving for dinner at home every night until Christmas but I have a pizza in the freezer for emergencies and I think I have the meals planned which helps the stress. We have three cookie-making nights ... Which we'll have to possibly rethink. We don't even eat the cookies so there's that. We have a few people left to get gifts for, but I'm pretty solid on my people and C can be forced to find something for his father (the hardest person on the planet to purchase for) if need be. I'm not going to stress.
I'm not going to stress. My holiday mantra.
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)