Rainy doldrums

I wrote a very long post today about all the stressors in my life and why I can't seem to find my peace and be happy.

I'm not going to post it.

I think actually getting it all down on paper made me realize all the things I need to let go of. It's been a bad week.

I need to start smiling again.

I need to start laughing again.

I came home today early from work, suffering from the rainy day doldrums and buried myself in my bed for a couple hours to finish reading a sufficiently trashy book. Then I picked the boys up and we buried ourselves in my bed reading Dr. Seuss and Sesame Street books and watching a classic car auction (my boy is a little odd sometimes; that's what he wanted to watch). It was a good, stress-free night complete with spinach and garlic chicken sausages and homemade sweet potato chips that Number One ate all of (I'm still amazed). Number Two didn't cry once, and they both went to bed easily.

Sometimes you just need an easy night to remind you that things really aren't that terrible, and you really do have it pretty good.