Friday Five plus some

Things are rolling along here. I had to pull up the blog to see what I had written about and what I had not, and let’s see. School: still chugging along. We’ve had some growing pains as a family trying to figure out what fits into what time slot and still leaves time for everything else on our plates. After the one crazy day of doing the wrong homework and being up obscenely late, we’ve settled into proper routine and school has been great except for one giant mess which I talked about on twitter but I won’t here. This feels more permanent and I just want to forget it happened.

1.       Henry’s social anxiety, while it was bad during the thing that I won’t talk about, has had an amazing 180 turn. Here’s how it usually goes. We go somewhere, somewhere that he knows and he knows some or all of the people. He cries and doesn’t want to go, and when we get there he hides and refuses to interact with anyone and generally impedes not only his own enjoyment but mine because I can’t interact with people and make him somehow comfortable. This has never really stopped us from putting him in that situation because we always hoped he would work his way out of it, but it’s been rough. When we occasionally go over our neighbor’s house, he has mostly stayed in the living room whine-crying and if there is dinner involved, I have to set him up in another room so no one can see him eat.

LAST NIGHT I went to one of those Usborne books parties at the same friends’ house. I dragged the kids bc they don’t like when I pick out books for them. Henry never had an issue, right from the first step in the door. There were strange adults there, a few loud kids. He played and talked to me in front of them and even picked out books from a catalog at the same table with people he didn’t know. I don’t know how to properly express how amazing this is. I noticed it, but also didn’t notice it because he wasn’t making it hard for me so I was just going about my business when my friend said several times how amazing H was being. He was being amazing by just being a regular, not anxious, not shy kid. It was HUGE. (also he talked me into buying him a lot of books.)

2.       I hurt my hip earlier this week and I don’t even know how but it hurts. Some sort of muscle problem. Really bad on Wednesday, better on Thursday but by the night I was hobbling again, and sore again today. This crap really needs to work itself out because pain just doesn’t work for me. It doesn’t fit in with my everyday life.

3.       I’ve been reading a lot again lately, but I’ve been stalling on a book. It seems to be a good book but my fun and exciting YA supernatural books are so much more enthralling. I think if I sat down and committed to this other book, I would really appreciate it. Maybe not. Maybe at least I’d know though.

4.       A friend from high school/college/worked with in college sent me this note on Goodreads. I hadn’t been on it in a while because I was really behind on updating but I’m back now and fully updated. It was so sweet and appreciated.

5.       First game of fall ball is tomorrow! It’s a double header! This is going to be … long, it’s going to be long. As team mom I need to figure out food between the games, and keep an eye on one of the kids whose mom is out of town. So two games, and also we have tickets to tomorrow night’s Rays game. We won’t be staying for the Sister Hazel concert afterward. Full day! Fun day! I’m excited to see Spencer play again.

• +1 My anxiety has been spiking lately, but I don’t know if it’s worth a separate doctor’s appointment to reevaluate my meds or if it’s just something to power through. No sobbing, no worrisome issues really (last time I held out too long for an appointment I was in really rough shape by the time I got to my previously scheduled appointment). Just a lot of that horrible can’t-breathe feelings, a few unprovoked panic attacks, a couple periods of the sads (depression is really not usually a problem for me). Nothing huge, just a lot of little stuff. Not remembering if I took my nightly anxiety meds and then worried to take what might be more but worried I can’t sleep otherwise; random insomnia despite taking my night pills. Ugh. I have an appointment for 10 days from now but I’m going to be out of town for work and have to reschedule. I can’t reschedule that particular appointment for earlier as it’s also my yearly, but do I go longer? Do I wait it out? Nothing feels particularly overwhelming by itself, but that’s what I thought before and I was holding on more tenuously than I realized. I also don’t really want to be on more meds. I need to find a way to chill myself out.

• +2  Fall colds and allergies really bite.