I have never felt pretty. It’s not a fishing for
compliments thing or a “no one ever told me I was pretty” thing. I’ve just
never really had that kind of confidence. I don’t feel comfortable without make
up. I wish I had known how to do make up before about this year, because I’ve
been wearing it since high school but it has always been slap dash: at least I’m
wearing lipstick and blush.
The conundrum is that I also worry that make up makes me
look like I’m trying too hard. I work in a semi-casual setting most of the
time, but occasionally (like today) I have an out-of-office meeting which means
dress clothes, and definitely the full face of makeup. But then on my drive in,
I feel like I’m wearing too much make up. Foundation, eye makeup, blush, mascara,
eyebrows filled, lipstick … I do my makeup in a natural look nearly always, but
…
Eh, there’s always a but. But I don’t feel good without
it. But I feel stupid for needing it. My husband likes me with or without, I know that. But I just don’t feel pretty.
This post felt so much more eloquent this morning in my head.
At least I make cute kids.
4 comments:
I know you're not fishing for compliments, but you're gorgeous. Inside and out.
(AND you make cute kids. So that's just a nice bonus. haha)
No one not-pretty made kids that cute. I know what you mean about the makeup, and I'm always worrying if people think I'm overdoing it, but I think things look way more obvious to ourselves than to other people. Especially if you're doing neutrals, I bet you're safe.
I can't leave the house without a full face. I'll tone it down on the weekend just so I'm not wasting good makeup on a pajama day, but I usually regret it when I get a glimpse of myself in the mirror and think, ooh I look tired.
I wear make-up pretty much religiously mostly because I just feel so washed-out and tired looking without it.
I always feel self-conscious when I wear a lot of makeup to work, particularly when I wear bold lipsticks. But no one bats an eye, and when I look around, I realize other women are wearing red lips and blue eyeshadow...and even when they're not, no one really notices that I am.
For me what it is is that wearing bold makeup is a matter of self-confidence: I look good, I don't mind if people look at me, I am worth looking at. It's a really hard mental hurdle to get past, but the days that I do? I always feel like I can conquer the world.
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