I've found myself wistful lately at the descriptions of friends' antics around. Late evenings, spur of the moment nights out ... it all sounds like so much fun. Don't get me wrong, I really love my life. My husband, my kids, my home ...
I started thinking about this on Saturday night, when we got home from an early dinner with family at Cheesecake Factory. I got a glass of wine, chopped up a little cheese and settled in by 8pm to play several (okay, seven) games of Wordfeud simultaneously while reading a book and watching my husband play Grand Turismo 5 (gag me). I was asleep by 9:45pm, which was helpful because Spencer woke me up at 1:30 thinking it was morning and I had to get him to the bathroom and then back to bed, Henry woke up at 4pm angry because it had been ten hours since he last ate, and Spencer woke up again at 6:45am, and again I needed to get him to the bathroom and settle him in on the couch with Disney, cereal and a sippy cup.
So I think, how is this my life? What happened to the sleeping in (moderately, I never really slept past 9am much), going out to the bar with friends, last minute movies, or sex in the daytime ... (okay, well there is a lock on my door but it's hard to concentrate when there's a toddler who didn't care where you were until that lock in engaged and then he's sticking his fingers under the door to find out why he's not allowed in ...)
... did I just write that or did I just think it?
Anyhow, I'm not sure what I'm saying here; I wish I were one of those bloggers that could come up with a succinct and poignant point. I think I just wish I had an occasional night/morning to not be me, with the option to be me on almost every other night and day.
3 comments:
here, here! I feel like this sometimes, too. But then, I read the status updates of a few long-ago friends where they talk about marrying the wrong man, being single at 30 and having nothing to show for it and I look at my beautiful family and I think - I don't have it so bad!
But then Fuss throws a fit/is incredibly whiney/gets into something she shouldn't and I think - hmmm, wouldn't it be nice to be single (or at least childless) for a day? :)
That's true - I have several friends breaking engagements or divorcing right now and I'm glad that that's not me to ...
Well, I think it's easy to lose yourself in the mommy role, but eventually you'll find the right balance and be able to to be more spontaneous at times. Being a wife and mommy is definitely better than single. Ask your single friends!
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