Parenting woes

I suppose everyone worries about being a good parent.

I'm laying in bed tonight frantic because I worry that The Boy isn't eating enough. We've never pushed food on him, letting him eat as much as he wants, and if he doesn't want a meal we don't make him eat it. He doesn't get substitute food, unless I haven't made dinner and the adults aren't really hungry - then I'll let him decide what he wants. But if I make dinner, he can eat it or not, as well as with any other meal. We don't really do snacks. He doesn't ask for food, ever, so I don't know if he's hungry and not asking, or if he's just not hungry. Lately, he hasn't really been eating much and I worry that he's not eating enough and if that is contributing to his toddler attitude problem.

I'm pretty sure I'm over-doing it on that front, but now I can't stop worrying about it.

Likewise, I'm also worrying that I'm not teaching him enough. Should he know how to draw his shapes by now? He can identify them, but he can't draw them. He doesn't attempt to color in the lines, or draw anything in particular. He can remember all kinds of songs (especially Beatles songs) and has an amazing vocabulary, but should he be reading sight words at all? What should I be teaching him that he's ready to learn?

I think all this is because I'm home on maternity leave so I feel more like a SAHM (which I am not cut out for, BTW), and I'm afraid I'm not being attentive to his needs enough because I'm worried about counting hours on when Turtle should eat, and trying to get him to sleep, and having some serious lethargy and lack-of-hunger problems of my own.